February 6, 1997
My dear children, grand-children, and great grand-children. I am going to tell you all something very special.
When dad died, I was so full of grief dat nobody will ever understand. I prayed day and night, please Father help me, keep me healthy to raise our children, if something would happen to me, what would happen to my sweet children in a strange land, no family. I was so helpless and alone, the big responsibility what was upon my shoulders. Please Father what should I do, return to Holland, stay in New Jersey or move close to the Church in Utah where they could get married in the Church in Gods Holy House?
I promised my Heavenly Father if I could raise our children I would go on a mission when they all got married and you all know I kept that promise to my Heavenly Father.
I served 18 months from July 1977 until January 1979. I went on a proselyting mission to my home land. It was in the summer of 1978. I was gone about 1 year and something happened to me that I want to tell you. We had some investigators who wanted to know about the Holy Ghost. My companion and I studied each morning one hour by ourselves. One morning when I was studying about the Holy Ghost and was finished, I stood up and suddenly something came upon me. It entered on the top of my head, it was a little shaky feeling a warm, wonderful peaceful feeling, a happy feeling, a humble feeling. It went through my whole body, my head, neck, breast, arms, fingers, but it was also a soft feeling of peace and tranquility. It went through my belly, back, legs and feet and then it left me. I was standing amazed, I didn’t want to move. Then did came into my mind, “I will be your constant companion.”
This knowledge have never left me. When I came home from my mission, I had a hard time to go back into normal life. Well on February 6, 1997 I was home alone I didn’t feel good. I was studying my Relief Society lesson. I went to the New Testament John 14:12-27. When I came to verse 16 it said: “and I will pray the Father and he shall give you another comforter, that he may abide with you forever.”
Suddenly, when I read that, I got a personal witness from my Heavenly Father that in 1978, I had received that other comforter. After 19 years my understanding was opened up. I sat there by myself, crying and crying. I then understood why I must go through so much trials and tribulations and that I was tested over and over again - to see how faithful I would be. That day in 1978 it became clearer to me then ever before, with the knowledge that my Heavenly Father was pleased with me, that I kept my promise to go on a mission, and that He loves me. I am his daughter, even with all my faults and short comings. I have no matter what, have always been faithful never wavering. I am so blessed!
I want you all to know that God lives! His son atoned for our sins. I am so grateful for this knowledge. I thank my Heavenly Father each day for all my blessings that he brought us to America. Why, I understand better then ever before the reason. I am grateful to be a member of his Church on this earth. I want you all to know that I love you all so much this all have made me a better person. I know there are many things I still have to do and I hope and pray I will have the time to do so. I see things now differently then ever before. God bless you all.
Take care, with all my love always,
Your Mam and Grandma Boot